"At the mountains of madness"

this sketch made years ago with the same idea help me to end the las version

English first, last in spanish

I dress to go to work, not the one from now the one from before; adjust the tie and take a look: "if it looks good, although old-fashioned for the time" -think- ... I get excited tying the knots and thinking how much I will run today and if I will have to cross some inhospitable place; When I put on my jacket, I imagine being in front of the Senate or perhaps in the middle of a confrontation between the angry crowd ... but the funny part is when previously talk with people and I am sheltered by the institutions to pretend that I exist ... days ago I had a nightmare, dreamed that I was going back to work: I left my father alone and they transported me to a high risk area to look for a woman. I had already seen the entrance to the land but I did not say that as we ed by and they informed me inside the truck - I did not want to go but ended up accepting - I knew that no one else could do the job.

"at the mountains of the madness" represent Lovecraft work mixed with some experiences

I don't want to go back Why am I going back? ... strange to know that there is no tomorrow around every corner. I tell myself that this is no longer real that moment has already ed, that I cannot be looking at the past ...

-I know- cannot longer continue like this, and it has been months since understood something: I can no longer go back to work.

Think I was angry, I would have preferred that you, knowing our work and area, would have said this. We're the ones who deliver the bad news, I can handle it ... but I think you wanted me to figure it out.

Today that I talk about this, I also think that there is nothing more to say about it, so I wrote to never have it in mind again.

(I suppose: the best is throw this clothes)

for this group I based in the shield of my school...

-this- the 3 heads represent states of mind, condition, age and emotion: pain, suffering & sadness

Me visto para ir al trabajo, no el de ahora el de antes; acomode la corbata y mire un poco: "si luce bien aunque anticuado para la época" -pense- ...me emociono atando los nudos y pensando cuánto correré hoy y si tendré que cruzar por algún lugar inhospito; al colocarme el saco imagino estar frente al senado o talvez en medio de una confrontación entre la muchedumbre iracunda... pero la parte cómica es cuando previamente platico con gente y soy abrigado por la institucionalidad para fingir que existo... hace días tuve una pesadilla, soñé que volvía al trabajo: dejaba a mi padre solo y me transportaban a una zona de alto riesgo para buscar a una mujer. Ya había visto la entrada del terreno pero no dije eso mientras pasábamos de largo y me iban informando dentro de la camioneta -no quería ir pero terminaba aceptando- sabía que nadie más podría hacer el trabajo.

this is my first sketch concept years ago

No quiero volver ¿Por qué vuelvo? ...extraño saber que no hay mañana a la vuelta de cada esquina. Me digo a mi mismo que esto ya no es real que ese momento ya pasó, que no puedo estar mirando el pasado...

-se- que ya no puedo seguir así además hace meses que entendí algo: ya no puedo volver al trabajo (ya no puedo volver al maldito trabajo)

Creo que me enoje, ubiera preferido que tú conociendo nuestro trabajo y área hubieras dicho esto. Nosotros somos los que damos las malas noticias -puedo con eso- pero creo querías que yo lo dedujera.

Hoy que hablo de esto creo que ya no hay nada más que decir al respecto, así que escribí para no volver a tenerlo en mente jamás.

I made two diferent concepts about mental illness

same wanted represent a particular horror state of mind

Made this work in parts to inktober 2021 be an old proyect in my mind and changed in the time, years ago in Art amino I post a poll about what old proyect I can end Post about it (that be 2 years before :flushed: )

I finish this and all the things represent It)

#lovecraft