Am I Starting To Relating / Becoming This Character??? ( I Have Been Jealous Throughout Some Of My Life. )

I have been thinking about this for an entire week. And the most important question of it all. I have been jealous of everyone becoming famous and whenever I seen someone as famous my mind suddenly manifested into thunderbolt whenever I lay my eyes on them. All of a sudden I felt this uncontrollable amounts of jealousy inside of me that I'm trying not to show it to other people and hiding it. Am I truly becoming like him?