I'm fine 🕊 BTS Love Yourself

I'm feeling just fine, fine , fine...

Created: 20/03/20

Posted: 23/03/20

WARNING: Just want to put that it might be triggering. Don't read it if it'll trigger you.

Love Yourself

She would always tell people she was fine. People would look at her with eyes that said sorry. She didn't care what people thought. It was her life and if she said she was fine, people should just leave it as that. Things started to get on top of her. People started to tell her things to do.

If one of her friends was going through a break up, she was there. If she asked for help, no one would help her.

I'm fine,

She would always say, with a fake smile. It was a lie. She knew it was a lie. Some of her friends began to notice how much people were putting things onto her. Even when they would tell her, she would always say,

I'm fine,

With another fake smile and another lie going through her teeth. But after a few years, who knew a band would change her life, for the better.

Years ed and her friends began to listen to a certain type of music.

K-POP.

She was never interested in that type of music. Her friends kept asking her to listen to it. Especially a certain group,

BTS.

"Their music will help you. They're an amazing inspiration to a lot of people who are going through things"

"I don't need to listen to them. I've already told you that I'm fine" she would say. A fake smile that looked real, but her friends knew it was all fake.

"Just listen to this. I think you'll change your mind" her friend handed her the love yourself: tear album. She let out a sigh.

"Just give it a listen. I know you'll change the way you think" her friend said. Later that night, she listened to the album. She couldn't believe how amazing the music was or how amazing the lyrics were. In that moment she knew that this special group of guys were going to change her life.

For the better.

A few months ed and her friend was able to get tickets to meet them. At first, she wasn't sure how to react on it.

"I've not long started to like them, yet we're going to meet them?"

"It isn't that bad. You'll like them. I've met them a few times before and they're a really nice lads" her friend would say, with her other friends agreeing who've met them. In the end, she agreed to go. Once the day came, she began to get nervous.

"What am I going to say to them? Will they ask me questions on how I am? I can't lie to them. But what if they ask me if I'm fine? Should I lie?" She asked herself, with a shake of her head, it was a bad idea. They would see right through her.

-

Here she was. Standing in the queue, along with other A.R.M.Y's. Her friends were chatting away, while she stood there, in her world. Thinking what to say to them.

"It's our turn now" her friend said to her. She began to get nervous. Hands started to sweat and it felt like she couldn't walk.

"Are you alright?" Her friends asked her. All she could do was nod her head.

"I'm fine" she would say, but it was another lie.

"Do you want to get some fresh air?" Maybe she needed too. She walked away. She didn't realise that they were looking at her. One of the wanted to go and see you. Asking one of the bodyguards, who was hesitant at first, but he told him he wouldn't be long. He got up from the seat and walked outside to where you were. You were leaning against the wall, with your head down.

"Hi" you looked up to see one of the standing there, looking at you. All you could do was nod your head.

"I noticed that you started to get nervous"

"I'm fine"

"You aren't" that was the first time that someone told her that. Even though her friends said it, she would tell them that she was.

"I told you that I am"

"And I'm telling you not to lie to me. You aren't fine and I can tell you aren't. You might have not known me long, but you can trust me on this. I haven't got long. You don't have to tell me if you don't want too"

"I'm not fine. I haven't been for ages" she mumbled. He looked at her. She continued to tell him things about her. How people would ask her to do things or this and that. She would try and say no, but nothing would come out. People would ask her if she was fine, she would say that she is.

"I would always do it with a fake smile"

"Even doing that doesn't help anything. A fake smile can be a real one to people. Have you talked to anyone?"

"I don't want too. It'll feel like they won't help me or believe me. People want me to do this that and the other. I wouldn't get help from people. It was all on me, solving problems that wasn't even mine. If my friends were going through a break up, it would always be me to solve it. If I wanted help, they wouldn't help me. They would start asking if I was fine, I would say that I am and I would just fake smile. They always thought it was a real smile" she told him. He walked closer to her before he hugged her. She was shocked but hugged him back.

"You aren't alone. There are people out there who would help you. You have to help yourself. The first thing is to stop telling people you are fine when you aren't. If someone tells you to solve a problem that isn't yours, just tell them no. There is nothing saying no to something that has nothing to do with you" he said. She let the words sink in. He was about to walk away when she stopped him.

"What's your name?" He turned to look at her.

"You don't know my name?"

"I've only been a fan of you and the guys for a few months"

"It's Yoongi, but I go by Suga in the group" he smiled to her before walking back. Hearing what Yoongi said, she knew it was going to help her.

-

"What did you tell the girl?"

"That there is nothing wrong in saying no to people who want you to do their things, when it hasn't got nothing to do with you" it was true what he said. Even the guys agreed with him.

"There is also nothing wrong in asking for help. Saying that you are fine and faking a smile doesn't get you anywhere. I hope to meet her again"

-

You started to listen to BTS more and more. You brought all their albums and you would see them.

They taught you to love yourself.

They taught you that it is alright to ask for help.

They are there for you.

You are there for them.

They love you.

You love them.

They inspire and they're an inspiration.