HI, I'm happy to present you this nightmare (there is meaning there but it just so happened to turn out slightly horrifying (although I still kinda like it???) and I can practically heeaar the furries coming for me. Yes, I'm aware but no, it's not so LEAVE IT pweas)
KK coolio LET'S GO
*also trigger warning perhaps. mention of suicidal thoughts/ that mentality*
This one's kinda layered I guess. First (I'm pretty sure I do this angle every time I draw 'rabbit' but... erhm... I have no excuse) the pairing of dog/death, tyler/rabbit. Also the visual of 'wolf in sheep's clothing' was the aesthetic I was going for. Aaaand the circles (I like working with circles if you haven't guessed already.
I live on a farm and have a dog; there's rabbits, I walk the dog, she's aware of the rabbits, I'm very aware of this whole dog/rabbit paradigm (like no doi, who isn't. ok I'll shh). Ahh man I don't even know how to get into this... eee dear. It's dark ok
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Here Tyler is putting on this rabbit skin/fleece/hood/cloak/idk whatever. (btw I had this all pictured as like what's going on in someone's head who's suicidal and there just like staring out a window or something so it's purposefully a a bit surreal, and more dark and twisted) Of course USUALLY rabbits run away, but they're not as fast as dogs so unless they escape some place small, they're pretty much done. I'm not sure if it's coming across but, y'know that intense stare, and I can almost feel the hand pulling the hood more and more across ever so gradually, un-blinking the entire time- that rabbit's not running anywhere. So, in the mind of this person (used tyler for reference obviously but it's not him specifically if you get what I mean), they wish that they could simply become a rabbit in the sight of a dog; get chased down and then that's it. Not only for the ease and swiftness, but also so that they don't have the weight of a HUMAN life on their shoulders, y'know? Just to become a rabbit and suddenly LITERALLY no one cares about you and, in fact, people will even shoot at you themselves if you get too numerous.
so yeah.
SECOND- wolf in sheep's clothing mentality.
The idea here being that the wolf has eaten the sheep and is now masquerading in hopes of getting more food. Clearly not good, bad bad wolfy boy. SOoo, mush that with the previous point; I was trying to get at the hideousness of the idea that's going through the person's mind. Like, yeah, it's horrible that they're in a place where they would be practically fantasizing about this circumstance but that is dwarfed by to idea itself. Basically, to be thinking so little of HUMANITY as a WHOLE that they would think that simply switching their life out for that of a rabbit would be any kind of option (and just to stuff a whole entire consciousness into a being that wasn't meant to hold it is a lot to demand of that being). (again, just to be clear- any thoughts around suicide are absolutely NOT YOUR FAULT and I hope with all my heart that you can find help and for dealing with them if you're going through this. This is just my art and it is somewhat gruesome at times but it's NOT and NEVER WILL BE saying anything as complete or magnificent as that which can be said with your or any other life)
ANd then, finally, the circles...
The inner, white, circle is referencing to the halo symbol as seen in a lot of paintings (u get what I mean) and it crosses both sides of the character. The character, in this moment, is thinking that it would be best for the world if he were that rabbit- that in that situation would be the only place where the halo would be BUT, it's over both. Both him in his current, messed up situation AND in the nightmarish fantasy he's dreamed up while he's there- nothing is dark or messed up enough to remove your innate wonderfulness. The dark one is more of a spiral, and only on one side (I also liked the visual of it melting into his hoodie, like the dark spiral his mind has taken, he's longing for it to manifest in the real world). So it only being on one side is that, while he would love, or so he thinks right then he would love, for this moment to occur, that dark (mental) spiral cannot in itself take you anywhere. It can't hurt you even though it will try to convince you it can. Don't let it trick you. (and then this whole lil visual of an egg, regressing to childhood plus nesting dolls sorta visual but I'll spare you and not explain that further or we WOULD be here all night and it's already 1:15 heheheheheheHHh)
OKOK ALRIGHT ALRIGHT
That was so ver ver long. I hope that's all ok. Like I said, a little more dark and twisted than I'd usually post or explain here but, well, I like it (also, (this is the last thing, promise heheh) when I had the idea I thought it was going to be a quick little sketch (turned out to be 3 hours (I actually timed it this time wow) but then again that is pretty quick for me) but I was worried about the rabbit and getting it to look anywhere near decent so when I did the sketch and was ok with it, even though it turned out... like this... I really wanted to see it through (also I got 666 followers today so maybe kinda fitting??? eh eh OK))
BYEBYE
Stay alive pals
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Stunning! :)
Thank you!!