Third Day of Heart Speak

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I did not read the topic about this until very late and I nearly dropped my phone when I found out what it was. I don't think I have ever written a love letter to someone before. A love poem yes, but not a letter. I guess my first love letter ever will be written to "X".

I'm really not sure where to start. Maybe where it all began? You. Maybe, just maybe, I can let you into the secrets I've been holding so dearly in my heart.

Do you the first time I asked to match aesthetics with you? I was so very nervous actually that you were going to say no. I was ecstatic when you agreed and even more tense when sending you the art of Rafayel and MC. I thought maybe it would be too much, but if you decided no then I was okay with it. However, you agreed and that made my little heart happy.

I love how we are still matching to this day, and we have no interest to do it with anyone else but ourselves.

I love moments when you message me out of the blue about our ocs, or how you bring me up briefly in ooc when I'm not there. It let's me know you're thinking about me the same way I am of you. And I adore your little pouts when my attention is elsewhere.

But as of recent, I feel like something has changed. Before I was able to carry on with my day and you would cross my mind a few times and I would move on. Can you tell me why you've running through my head more frequently than normal? I find myself smiling and daydreaming about you, I can be watching something or writing and then you pop up. Whether it be something silly you said or your reaction to my unhinged messages, I find myself smiling in turn. Of course I stop cause why in the world am I so distracted? Then I roll my eyes and continue doing whatever it was I was busy with.

Soon you've become the last thing I think about before bed and the first thought I think of when I wake. Amino somehow becoming the first app I open to reread our messages of yesterday. You respond to me more now by the way, and faster too. The thing is, you don't even need to. I also love how kind and considerate you are of others. You include everyone and compliment everything. This is more recent, but you also know how to read the room and know when to be serious and when to jest.

That night of our first fight, I felt as if you were holding my hands and pulling me into you to prove to me you were serious about everything you had to say. Every word that came forth from your lips was genuine and the thought of me gone truly scared you. It also made you come to the realization how much I meant to you.

To me, over the years love can be shown through a multitude of relationships. I have friends who tell each other they love each other before leaving. Families that do the same. I wonder where you sit?

The love I feel for you runs deeper than something platonic, but not fully romantic or ionate. Maybe I'm turning a blind eye to how I truly feel because I enjoy what we have now. All I know is I adore you and I keep you closer to my heart with each ing day. No one knows what tomorrow will bring. Maybe we will be something more down the road, maybe we won't. Maybe we will never speak again.

Would it be too much to be the diary you keep in your drawer that you spill all your secrets to? To be the bed in your room where you can lay your tired head upon every night? To be the reason why you find yourself smiling because of something I said? To measure your hands in mine as you tease me about my height. To be your favorite pen that never runs out of ink so you can write endless stories. To be that warm cup of coffee that wakes you up to tackle the day. To be the heroine in your story as we reach the final chapter. To me, my darling, I have a picture of you in my heart and a vision of you in my arms.

But this what love letters are for right? To confess your feelings to the other? Here in this moment, I do cherish you deeply. And I hope this resonates with you forever, I love you.

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