Off topic/vent

Hello guys, this might be a little havey and a little weird I'm sorry.

So I have no idea who to start this, ...

I'm gonna try so here we go...

I feel so stupid, like I feel like I'm nothing but full of shame.

I kinda wish I never got a phone, because I feel like I'm such a problem ca, but that might be because I'm sensitive... Like really sensitive... But I kinda like that about myself,..

I feel like I overreact, and it makes me feel stupid.....

I don't post stuff I'm really proud ( sometimes I will)of because I'm scared of being judged... I get scared to post stuff in general.

I feel so insecure, like I just want to scream, like I can't handle the harsh reality of the world.

I just wish the world was happy and ok. But I get that could never happen. (Edit; it could happen though, thanks to all the good people who try)

Which is fine because everyone has something about them that us different from everyone else, but we are all equal.

But back to the vent thing, I just wanna give up sometimes, but I keep going.. Why? Why? WHY? why can't I just be normal,.. Maybe I am.. But I just feel weird..

I hate some of the things I do.. I hate myself... But sometimes.. I actually kinda like myself..

I feel like I wanna die, but then.. I don't..

So I'm sorry for throwing this at everyone's faces, I feel bad for posting this on the internet, I know this is kinda heavy, I guess I finally wanted to talk about something's.

I have therapy but I'm too scared to talk to them, so it's kinda really stupid I posted this here

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thank you for reading this

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