I'm new to this amino, and i guess- I kinda just wanna vent. I'm having a hard time in school, (With old friends, grades, Social status etc) And i was just texting my old friend about my day. And she kinda said something. But before i get into that i just wanna- Vent a lil'. I used to be in a friend group, and it was great, y'know? It's like- The group of friends you love like family. You never want to leave them. You never want anything bad to happen to them. Like that. I met 3 In 1st grade, And in 2nd my best friend had to switch schools. It's been a LONG time since i've seen her, But we still talk. The second one was still there until 3rd grade, Then she had to move. (This is the one i was texting.) And i made a new friend in 4th. I introduced her with my friend from two years ago, (The one that didn't move.) And we all became friends! we all felt like family, And we were like sisters. We were together for YEARS, But then they just started ghosting me. I wasn't doing too good socially, And i began to stutter and i got really anxious around anyone else. I started thinking that they were just sick of me, And thats why they ghosted me. It's been around 3 Months since they talked to me. I keep telling myself it's my fault. That i'm not good enough for them. I made a friend about a month ago. But until then i just kept quiet. Never talked to anyone. My new friend was in my homeroom, and she was really nice. She started making me feel bad about a lot of things after about a week. Lots of small things. Like not calling her because i had homework. And not sticking with her every second of my life. I have a different math class, too. She wrote me a not today and we barely talked. In the note, She pretty much Guilted me for "Making her feel like a hooooorrrible person." Wowwww. Sugoiiii. Awesomeeeee. But at the end of the note she said she liked me more than a friend. So heres the thing. So did friend #2----- And she was UPSET when i told her. She said that- That she was going to kill her. Is this what yanderes are or something?!- I- I'm honestly worried. She calls me everyday. She knows a lot about me. She sent me something, So she knows my address. We don't have anything in common anymore, And i feel worried around her. Like something bad is gonna happen. My other friend, The one in my homeroom hasn't talked to me. These two things happen today. That's pretty much everything at school. i have to deal with abuse at home, too. That kinda sucks. My older brother. He screams at me for the tiniest things. Even if i dont pick up his mess. He threatened to smash my head into the stove once, So i ran into the bathroom and locked the door. He punched the stove, broke it, and blamed me. yayyyyyy. Such a great lifeeee. He's my older brother, And he's been like this for multiple years. actually, A LOT. Ever since i was around 6. I'm sorry for such a long vent, and i know i dont have it as hard as all of you, but i just wanted to say something l. somewhere. I don't expect anything. I just wanted to vent. I'm sorry for being a nuisance.
-R
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