pace

November 5, 2018࿐

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⌇burned out

「 Sometimes we push ourselves a little too far and begin to stress ourselves out. I've seen people on Aja burn themselves out working for way too many active groups. Though I've never had that experience, I've burnt myself out many times. At one point I got so burned out from art that I had a year-long art block that I just got out of, but often haunts me. I used to play volleyball and I pushed myself so hard to be there, around people I knew that didn't like me. I've taken to many hard classes at once and ended up dropping them, thankfully that made me feel much better. The thing is, I forced myself with all of these, I burned myself out more than I already did. I didn't know how to pace myself and go at my own pace. As much as I hate to it it, I've been jealous of many others and put myself down because I wasn't a good volleyball player, had no stamina, or wasn't at where I wanted to be art skill wise. It wasn't till I listened to " my pace " by stray kids that I realized that I needed to take a step back. I had so many mental breakdowns because of all the stress, it was horrible. I didn't go at my pace, I didn't accept where I was, I put myself down. It all just snapped and I realized to go at my own pace. 」

⌇your pace

「 We all have different paces, we all don't grow the same. It's hard to accept the fact that we have different paces. Jealously, feeling like you aren't where you should be, feeling drained from all the work, etc can really make us not take a step back to look at ourselves. It's okay that we can't be up to where many others are but know that you'll be there at one point if you follow your pace. Sometimes we need to take a break for ourselves as well. I forced myself to not draw for months, hiding my art supplies, and ended up going straight back for it a few months later. I constantly reminded myself that its okay if I'm not like everyone else, because I'm not them, so I won't have the same pace as them. We are all different. Don't keep forcing yourself to run because you'll out, take it slow so you can run faster in the end to reach your goal. Go at whatever pace you can go, because forcing yourself will drain you out, and possibly make you hate whatever you're doing. 」

⌇challenge yourself

「 Time to be a complete hypocrite of what I just said. (insert a high pitched yeehaw) When I say go at your own pace, don't push yourself down low under your pace. It's best to go at your pace, but as well as experience new things, and be challenged. After you've calmed down, found your pace, take on the challenge to keep going and improving. It's okay to take breaks in the many groups you are in, just don't do it WAY TO MUCH. (Huge pet peeve is that school excuse when they actually just procrastined their work, okay I'll stop lol). Feel free to take on a challenge to improve, I'm actually going to be doing the 365-day art challenge soon to improve quickly. As you grow, your pace should as well, its okay if you always have the same pace. Challenge yourself at least, so you won't be stuck in time, grow your skills, motivation, etc. I hope you can find your pace where you can feel comfortable to challenge yourself. 」

written by lotus of golden gates

#fightforchange

↳「 oh boy what a post, I felt like I wasn't being so on the Aja topic whoops lol, I tried. These also got long so comment :eyes: if you actually read it all uwu. It's 1 am and I'm posting it, oh well 」

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