Warning: politics mentioned
At the age of about 20 or 21 (I'm 23) is when I finally came to with the fact that I'm bisexual (or possibly a lesbian. I'm still discovering things about myself). For a long time in my life I would push down my feelings about my sexuality, not really questioning my feelings. Whenever I harbored strong feelings for another girl in my class or on TV I would ignore them and just thought I was either really close friends with the girl I had a crush on, or thought my feelings for any woman I saw on TV was simply a silly "girl crush" thing. I when I was very young I would look up "SJW meltdown" videos and that led me to political commentators like Ben Shapiro and Steven Crowder who don't seem to have favorable opinions of the LGBTQ community.
I was young and naive and didn't really form political opinions of my own and really just regurgitated whatever political opinion Ben Shapiro and Steven Crowder videos fed me, and that led me to having some very homophobic and transphobic views of the LGBTQ community. That being said, I've luckily grown out of that stage of my life and have been exploring my sexuality (I have a girlfriend now so yay :grin: ). I wanted to know if anyone else had a similar experience growing up queer and not realizing it yet? Did you harbor any bigotry views of the LGBTQ community before realizing you were queer or trans? And did political commentators like Ben Shapiro and Steven Crowder sway your opinion in any way when you were younger? Maybe even your family and friends (my stepdad is very homophobic so I would say I agreed with his views as a way of having him accept me as a stepdaughter)
I'm very interested in learning how those who had similar experiences as me grew out of that horrible phase and what you would say to your younger self who had those views now that you know who you are.
TL;Dr I was very homophobic and transphobic as a kid before I realized I was queer. I want to know if anyone had the same experience as a kid before realizing you were queer or trans.
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I never had a problem with it, I mostly saw gay stuff or when I was 12 and getting more into anime(started watching anime when I was 10 or 11) and found out what yaoi was and I never thought of it as bad or anything, even tho I grew up with homophobic parents(more my dad than my mom) I still was ok with it and I even had a small argument once with my dad because he was being homophobic(before I knew I was bi and what not) and then when I was 14 or 15 my mom asked me if I was gay and I said no(at the time I wasn’t) and still never thought anything of it, it wasn’t until I was 17 and just thought of ‘am I actually part of the lgbt+ community?’ all because I kept seeing people saying they were gay, lesbian, ect. and just out of curiosity I wanted to research if I was too and that’s when I came to the conclusion I was biromantic, asexual and greyromantic(years later I changed it) and I was just like ‘ok cool that’s fine’ and never thought of it as a bad thing and same thing happened this year(being 21 going on 22 real soon)5 months ago when I figured out I was ambiamorous and abroromantic then the same thing happening when I figured out I was genderfae(still questioning a tiny bit sometimes), I guess stuff related to the lgbt+ community never really bothered me since I never grew up with hard core homophobics just the every now and then homophobics when I will hear homophobic stuff sometimes(not too much anymore but I will still never come out to my dad) and that’s why I’ve also been ok with it even before and during my realization for being part of the lgbt+ community for the last 5 years
I'll be honest I never had a problem with it. I have a very ive family when it comes to stuff like that and I pretty much already knew growing up that I wasn't 100% straight but it took some time to finally figure out that I'm lesbian.
there are some things I struggle with like comphet and kind of just feeling like I don't fit in with other couples. I'm still trying to work things out right now
honestly when i realized i was queer/trans i was just like "oh ok" and had no problem with it, though i was raised conservative i always questioned the logic of homophobia. sure i was very ignorant to how things worked back then but i was like, as long as my mom hates it, it cant be that bad. :sob:
i did have some issues with being lgbtq and christian, it felt like i had to "pick a side" or whatever. not christian anymore though lol. and i denied being trans for a while bc it was easier to be cis.