Here comes a cringe title of I wish I was pretty /s

i struggle with my self image . A few days back i got into an argument with my mother and sister over it. i had shouted at them both “why can’t i be pretty?“. I tend to take a dozen or more pictures a day of myself and they have never enough to satisfy that being of my distorted self image. It’s rare that i actually like an image of myself and when i do eventually like one that tends to fade when i notice something is wrong about it.

Feelings of jealousy rush through me every time i see my sister. She is prettier, has a good sense of dress. and can make friends easily. In my head the mirror is my enemy because i will just cry if I see my reflection. I feel like the most disgusting person on earth. What i also said that day was “people will like me more if i am pretty“ as i weeped into my pillow. I have a huge history of unrequited love and i always think they rejected me because i am ugly. They say that’s not true but i can’t help but think that.

i have never liked myself

And its just dumb to think that.

image doesn't belong to me