ANOTHER Health Rant

I am heavily considering going full on vegan (dairy free, soy free, gluten free, low grease, low fat, low saucy low spicy.)

Just... be gone with it all.

I cant do it anymore. If they cant find whats wrong, might as well cut it all out. I feel its my only option.

But whats stopping me, you ask?

Cant eat out..

Cant eat what my family eats..

I'd be completely different from the people around me and that would be so hard..

The food they eat would smell good and if I would want it, I'd have to go and make my own version, which would also suck because I know what their version tastes like and I'd want it.

But it's honestly becoming less worth it every time I experience it.

I GO ALL DAY WITHOUT EATING SOMETIMES.

If I work, I don't eat. From the time I wake up til the time I get home around 7:30-8pm , I don't have anything all day except a couple sips of drink so I don't get dehydrated. By the time I get home, I'm more exhausted than I should be, because I'm running on no food, no energy. And I'm sick from not eating. Then, I end up eating something that makes me more sick.

If I attempt to eat at work, even something super small. Even something like fruit snacks. I'm sick and running to the bathroom.

IDK If its my stomach issues or anxiety or both.

The fruit snacks, probs anxiety.

The other stuff, probs the grease or fat or soy/gluten, whatever was in them, and maybe some anxiety?

Idk. I dont feel super anxious at work, so it doesnt make much sense. And it happens at home, too.

One day , I can eat something just fine at home. Chicken nuggets, taco bell, etc. But like the next day,, a week later, 2 days later, whatever, it might make me sick? I dont get it.It makes little sense and has little patterns and its frustrating and annoying and Im about to give up.

I'm sick of hospitals and tests and medicine too...

I already have to get an x ray and see like 4 other doctors and maybe get my thyroid checked and idk if i can even afford to add another 1-2 doctors to my list of 10. or 1-2 medicines to my list of like 6.

So, that's all for now.. ~~Thanks lol

-BG