TW!! Deppression. SH. And suididal thoughts mentioned!
Idk. Lately ive just been really losing interest in even continuing with life anymore if that makes sense. it’s weird, cause like… I have days where im all scared of dying cause i dont want to leave my friends cause i love them both so fucking much ((i of course dont want to leave them either way)) but then recently its just been really bad
I keep seeing things that make me feel like im going batshit crazy which I probably am and that makes me feel even worse about myself and its just gotten to a point where ive been planning on ways to kill myself, ive thought about doing it the slow way by just starving myself and wait to see what that does or just ODing or slitting my wrists. That or ive planned on just kinda using nature to push me over yknow? Like getting bit or stung by something bad or drowning myself
I dont have the guts to shoot myself though cause im a pussy i guess LOL
I wont do any of that hopefully or not yet though cause i apparently like torturing myself
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I've lost most of my friends to suicide and it's horrible. I truly hope that you talk to someone. We have resources and I can and will send them to you. I honestly wish you to get out from the grips of depression because it's so hard.