Shades Personal Notes.

May be depressing at least what I've been told by a friend

How many days has it been? It feels like months had ed. From the soldiers which had been send with me 3 are missing, two infected and in stasis, one mutated and contained. The rest has been buried by me. I had to do it… they were infected… turned or severely wounded.. there was no other choice, I ensured that they would stay dead. Still searching for the three missing… the first loses were taken against the infected, before we had a run in with umbrella soldiers, taking severe casualties, I was taken. Once I had escaped I tried to reconnect with the remaining soldiers. I only could get in with two at the base, reporting that they were scattered, before broke off, the last I heard was a scream. Once I got to the base I found the two fully turned… so I shot them. After I started to track down the rest… just ensuring they never wake again… the hardest was a old friend of mine. He wasn't turned yet… but there was no other chance, I had to do it… he wanted it… he didn't want to turn.. so I put a bullet in his head… I dragged his body out into the forest to the others… I buried him next to the other soldiers. Out of all only two were early enough returned to be put into stasis… one I had to keep to study the virus more… it is lonely… I have a undead friend with me… but it just feels wrong… did I do the right thing? Those images… the memories are killing me… why did I have to kill my own friends… why couldn't I save them… did I really do everything I could.. I failed them I should've been faster in my ways to find a cure. I could've saved them… if only… no.. I couldn't have known.. we weren't fully prepared.. but I had the main samples.. I should've worked faster. I caused this.. I have to continue the mission… even if they aren't here anymore… why did this have to happen?