NOT WHAT I AM

intro.

Wanna find out what I'm here for-

sns.

Maybe I'll never know

Prolly need to find out on my own

Find out why I'm out of place in my own home

Everyone got they're purpose

But I can't help but question mine

I feel like I'll won't find out until the day I die

Ion wanna be that guy that question shit all the time

But I can't help it, it's just apart of me, I can't lie and say

I'm not what I am

I'm not a good person, I'm not a good role model

My mind is so hollow, I can't guide anyone when I haven't been myself

I should just put those aspirations back on the shelf

My dreams of being all above are beginning to melt

Stuffy nose from crying making it hard to smell

(I'm not-) I'm not what I wish to be

don't think I'll be signed by J.Cole by the time we all go extinct

Don't think I'll ever truly feel what love brings

But that's life, and sometimes it stinks, yeah

sns.

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

(Hate to repeat myself but)

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

(Hate to repeat myself but)

umbra.

Maybe I’ll never know,

In the cocoon wrapped up all alone, Mr.Solo Dolo,

Could I be the spotlight of the show?,

That’s what I thought I had, but the other guy outshone,

I liked thinking my life was a movie,

I was a fan of the camera roll,

Life never called me yet for a sequel,

Nobody thought I was really meant for the cameras tho,

Grew up as the middle child, never got attention,

Always fought with my step dad, never got respected,

I always had ideas but they never got accepted,

Shit, I gave up trying, I was used to neglection,

I had to relocate behind the scenes,

Never felt welcome,

It’s just me, myself, and I on my own team,

People say I should feel happy emotions, But I never felt them,

sns & umbra.

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

(Hate to repeat myself but)

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

I'm not what I am

(Hate to repeat myself but)