Dear Liam,
Where do I even begin? It took me some time to think of something to write and put it down. It still hurts me knowing that you're not here anymore. I still the day the news of your ing happened. Just thinking about it makes me choke up and it still does 5 months later. Gosh I can't believe it's been 5 months since your ing. Even if it's been 5 months, I'm still in denial and believe that you're alive and well. If someone told me 10 years ago when I was 11 in the 6th grade in middle school you would died basically 9/10 years later, she wouldn't believe that person. I still don't to this day when the news of your ing was announced. It felt like a piece of me had died with you. I know that you don't know and I know that I never got the chance to meet you but I know that those who did are lucky enough to meet you. I'm just devastated that I'll never get to meet you in person. When I first found out the news of your ing, I didn't want to believe it. I was obviously denying it at first as I found out through Instagram from People I believe and I thought that they posted the news of your death as a joke. I thought about it for a moment before going onto Google and searched up your name to see news articles talking about it. I was obviously in shock and I really didn't believe it. I felt myself chocking up and I didn't want to cry but I obviously cried. I cried about like 2 to 3 times that day and I think your death was the first time I cried so much for someone like you. I didn't know how much of an impact you had made me and probably to others as I was kind of in and out of the 1D fandom after you and the others decided to go your own ways. I felt like your death had brought me back into my 1D phase that I had during my middle school days. During Where Are We Tour, you and the boys came to my home town back on September 19,2014 as I was only 11 at the time and was in middle school in my 6th grade year and I've never gotten the chance to see you and the boys as my mom was getting tickets for me and I assume the tickets were sold out. That date was my first and only chance to see you and the boys together on tour. I'm just truly heartbroken that I've never got to see you on tour before you've ed away. I wish you could have gotten the help that you needed the day of your death and if you did you would have been alive today and I wouldn't be making this but I am. You, and the boys, made such an impact on my life and I didn't even know it. Thank you for everything, Liam and may you rest in peace. 🕊🕊
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