5.6

           Dear Journal,

           He asked me today what I would do

            if I was out of the prison for a day

            again.

           This wasn't something I could answer

            during the session, I had to think about

            it for a while. I don't have much waiting

            for me when I eventually leave or lose

            this job.

            I also don't really know what I want to do.

           I guess I would look at places to go.

            I want to go somewhere where no one

           knows me, I want to be seen differently

            I guess.

           I don't like that most people don't take

            me seriously because of my lack of

            higher education. They think I'm dumb

            and I feel like I just fed into that belief

            by getting jobs just because of my body.

           I guess that's another thing I don't like

            about the people in my hometown that

            know me, they kind of see me as a uh

            whats the word? Like a brute?

           I want to go somewhere no one knows

           me. I want to live a more peaceful life

            and I want to be able to practice art

            without being looked down on for it.

           So if I left for a day, I'd start looking into

            places for me to go.

            I like my life here, but I don't feel

            complete.

           Kiva.

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