A letter to my future self
Dear tyler,
I hope you have done well within your transition. I hope you feel happy within yourself because I am trying to get that and i hope the effort I'm putting in now is effective for you.
I hope you have rebuilt your relationship with our father, and I hope hes changed too. I wonder if you still hangout with your old friends otherwise known as my current friends and are they still of us.
Did you get in the performing arts industry like we want? Is that still a dream or a future reality. Do you still have that dream if anything.
Most importantly are you happy with your life choices for the past 10 years. As you cant change the past but I can change our future.
Do you still feel the way I feel, the way you used to feel?
Do you still those weird funny times in science and german during seccondry school. I wonder if you'll look back on this and what it was like being 14 since now your 24. Was ing your driving test hard if you have ed it that is. I really wish I arnt as hard on myself in the future. I know what I need to improve on and I hope that it all goes well. I hope you dont push people away as much anymore since we both share that fault. I hear tourettes calms down in your middle 20s so hows that.
Please dont forget what it's like being a teen. Dont forget how hard it was for you and many other people. Lots of people forget but I hope you dont, being 14 was and is hard so I hope you will understand peoples struggles more!
Sincerely,
past tyler.
In the capsule I will include:
My first binder- it was an old cheap binder that was the most I could afford, I want my future self to that time period of naivety. And I hope I have better self care in the future. I want to that although thing where hard you still had friends to you to help you get that binder.
A picture of my current family- I wish for this because families change throughout time and I would like my future self to know who I trusted then, I would like my future self to look back on my family and compare it to their current family. Hopefully nothing changed except the unaccepting family are accepting in the futmure. I would like him to see how much my siblings have changed and grown into teem
A list of favourite songs and albums- I am a very musical person and I like songs for the emotion it portrays and how it makes me feel. The lyrics and bass are a key thing for me and I would like my future self to look back and listen to them even if he forgot them just to see how much I've changed mentally and how much the music industry has changed. I want my future self to feel the way I feel now when he listens to them so they the emotions and things going around my head at this moment.
A list of my friends current emails/phone numbers- I would do that because if i somehow lost with them I would like to regain . I would put emails aswell as numbers because either of these could change over time. My friends at the moment are very dear to me and I would hate to think we lost .
A picture of my current self and a voice recording- to see how much I've changed physically. To see how well I have done during my transition. To see if my style has changed and how much it has.
I would bury it next to my seccondry school, because it would trigger more memories of when I was younger. I would also know where it is. My school is horrible but I have had some fun times there and I hope that I that. I would also bury it there because it's where I spent 10 odd years of my life there. it was where I came out and where most of it accepted me when my parents did not.
I would tell my two closest friends because then we can share these memories together, no matter how sad, happy, fun and horrid they where. We have always stuck with each other no matter the cause and I hope in the future we still do. They would also make a capsule if I did since we do things together and we include everyone.
Comments (1)
It's kinda cheesy but hey.