The Price I Pay

I’m awake in a messed up century

Choking on things I don’t wanna be

Strung out and addicted to amphetamines

That’s just the price I pay

I take a good thing and I mess it all up

I’m convinced love adds up to nothing much

Breaking the wall where all my hopes are hung

That’s just the price I pay

Rain falls down and washes out my eyes

The burning all fills me up inside

It feels like another break up tonight

That’s just the price I pay

Spent all my life

Trying to find what’s right

All I find is the money’s on the other side

That’s just the price I pay

This godless city holds no place for me

No place for me to find my own meaning

Meaning I have to resign to never see

That’s just the price I pay

When I try too hard and it all feels wrong

Like a misplayed note in your favorite song

Or the breaking of a promise you’d leaned on

That’s just the price I pay

I can hide all my feeling

I can pretend I’m dreaming

Forget about all the bleeding

That’s just the price I pay