Nothings gotten better, this year has made me so much worse. Ive been trying to do art commisions to save up for Testosterone and im losing hope so fast. I keep trying to find an actual job but its so hard
Ive only gotten $10 for two drawings, combined it took me over 5 hours. Only to end up needing to owe someone that $10 so ive earned nothing so far, im not trying to sound like a baby or anything its just so fucking hard selling art. No one wants it, of course the one thing i enjoy doing literally gets me nowhere in life. I wore my binder for a few months and now my breathing is all sorts of fucked up. Ive been dizzy, my lungs hurt, my chest hurts, i almost always have some type of headache, i sleep all day, i almost never fucking brush my teeth. Im disgusting.
Im so tired of this.
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I hope you're doing better now! I understand how tough it is to transition. There was a time in my life I was searching for my identity, I was very certain about ftm. I did my research, I put in the work, and I had these struggles too. I have not transitioned to this day. But it's a hell of a progress
Holy shit our sad excuse for a president sucks ASS omfg
Being trans is literal hell, i should just suck it up and quit trying to even cause it never works, i should just suck it up and deal with what ive got
Every time i do think of just quitting it all i always chicken out cause i dont want to be fucking buried deadnamed on my fucking headstone