What a fun new years //heavy talk

Ended up relapsing before new years lastnight, i was just so stressed i needed some distraction

Of course i always end up regretting it. Ive noticed that alot of the times i end up feeling nauseous or just sick in general the day after and it really sucks. I blamed it on random things for so long now but i dont really feel this way normally so i guess maybe its that?

What am i doing wrong??? I wash afterwards and put bandages on. What else do i have to do?

All i know is that im just so fucking tired man. For over a week now all ive really done is sleep in bed all day without doing anything. Its like fuckin groundhog day it’s miserable, every day is the same over and over again