Among things

Among things never to be known

Is the severance that's lasted for so long

The so-called

"Calabasas

far away

from the masses"

I fear it will

go on and on

They say the pretty things I have

I borrowed

But I swear that everything I have is my own

Is

My skin retains scars easier than water

Is

Sometimes I suspect I might deserve

All the shit they throw my way

Is I miss being known

Is

I no longer belong on my throne

(Is I clung to it for too long)

Is

Since it's still time for confession

What was done to me I've done to others

But to be frank it left me sleepless

So I know the good in me might still prosper

Among things never to be told

Is

I starve.

I do

As they suspect.

I long

After all,

Aren't I human too?

And like Patty once said

You reap what you sow

And indeed so it goes

Is

I've dreamed of lying next to the enemy

Waking up to his hands around my neck

My blood on his teeth

Which I hurried to clean

My head held low

Let him keep play-acting the lover

And I, the captain of the boat.

Among things never to be sold

My wings

My voice and my thoughts.

The mary jane shoes they once mocked

And that one trench coat from a friend of an aunt.

(Picture belongs to me )